8/11/2013

Releasing the luxury of Complacency... it is no luxury at all.

My dear friends. Wow, it has been a long time since I've touched base. It has definitely been a continued roller coaster, but I feel like I'm on a rise above the "fog". Right now at this moment I am feeling so much hope and excitement. Mentalities that I have changed have been focused around not being a victim of my accident and the changes that have taken place. I realized that I'm leaning on my accident for fear of being expected to be the "old" Jamie. My husband and I have had extensive conversations around the idea of giving myself the benefit of the doubt, and not worrying about the over expectation of others. This is so liberating! I can be me, the real me, the new me, and be OK with me! I've realized a gigantic part of me has stopped living and I am engaging DAILY to push my personal boundaries. This is a habit I want to form. We went on a day family trip to a mountain beach on the river, a fam favorite. I was like a dead fish. Everything was dangerous and I wasn't involved whatsoever. We left with me feeling under stimulated and sad that my children weren't able to play with their "old" mom. Then the epiphany... if I continue with these habits of staying comfortable, by next year I might be staying in the car, watching through the windshield! NO! Not going to happen. So everyday I'm in a new habit...doing nothing dangerous, but not sitting snug and warm in my zone of complacency.

6 comments:

  1. Jamie,

    Your words meant a lot to me right now. My wife and I are back together and we are a family again. Like you said " Not worrying about the expectations of others", that is what we are doing? She has lost her family because of her decision to come back to me. Its been hard on her, but she sees the big picture as you do as well. Glad to see that you are doing better and coming out of the FOG. You are a truly amazing, beautiful woman inside and out and your kids and Nick are so lucky to have you and to join you on this journey. I am sure it is hard some days, but with who you are, those days are going to be fewer and fewer in between.

    Thinking and Praying for you,

    Jon

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    1. Thanks Jon and William. I appreciate your perspective!

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  2. Jamie,
    Just live your life as it comes to you. I firmly believe that you are on the right track, so keep testing your boundaries. One day you will suddenly realize that you have simply been living life without reference to your "old self."
    Bill Hyland
    Albuquerque, NM

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    1. Thanks Jon and William. I appreciate your perspective!

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